Snowed In...

Linus & his blankie

Can't say that there are many days that I have been snowed in the 10 years that I have lived here. Unlike growing up when it was a semi-regular occurrence. I especially remember the year that buses were cancelled every Monday in January. This would be a good thing if you could actually do something, but when you lived in a little wee town- you also needed to drive to get to friends or places.


So today we enjoyed our hibernation by staying in our p.j.'s until almost noon, making snowmen out of cotton balls & snowflakes. Then it was a bit of a wrestling match before lunch. Now both kiddies are down for a nap & I am watching the snow creep up our windows.

Christmas Preparations

Over the last couple of weeks, we have been doing stuff to get ready for the holidays. It is not all gloom & doom around here. Here are some of our festivities.

Santa Clause Parade- considering that I woke Jason up from his nap to then go stand out in the rain & hardly be able to move in his snow pants. He was quite into the whole experience. Sydney & Evelyn enjoyed it too, but Sydney I think just wanted to go play in the snow.

Brad & Sydney made their annual walk back from the nursery with the tree. Jason continued his "fear" of trees that move & would not go near them for the picture.

Jason did get over his fear soon enough to help decorate. We did need to direct the kids with their placement, or as you can see they all would be in the same spot. Once I started to lift Sydney so that she could place an ornament up high, she was right into putting them in different places.

Life Does Go On

Logan's passing on Friday was one of those events in life that present a lesson to be learned. I had been doing a bit of reading to try and figure out how to handle the situation with the kids. I by no means had figured out what I was going to do or what the best way to handle it was. So, I kind of jumped right in and did what I hoped was best. On Wednesday I had told Sydney that Logan was very sick and that she was not going to get better. Sydney knew I had taken Logan to the doctor the night before so she told me that the doctor could give her medicine to make her better. I tried to explain to her that this time that was not an option. I told her straight that Logan was going to die and that we did not know how much longer we had with her. I told her that we had to enjoy Logan and love her for each day we had left. I could not be sure how much she understood.

On Friday, I was thankful that Logan was downstairs and not in the direct sight of the kids. However, I thought that I should give Sydney the opportunity to say goodbye if that is what she wanted. At first she said no, then said she changed her mind. So, I took her downstairs to see Logan and say goodbye. She was OK with everything and didn't say too much at the time. I believe that Sydney loved Logan, but she never sought Logan out to play with her. Jason, on the other hand, would look for Logan & chase her around. He's been sick (round 2 of roseola) and we are not sure how much of his mood is attributed to that. He definitely kept us in the know that life goes on by throwing up all over the kitchen at dinner on Friday.

Since Friday, Sydney has talked to other people about Logan and will bring it up every once in awhile. Mom says she talked about her a lot on Saturday when they were making cookies. On Friday Sydney told me that we need to get a new puppy so that I would be happy again. I told her that I didn't want a new puppy, I was just going to carry Logan in my heart because she was very special to me & I loved her very much. The most freaky thing about Friday is that Robb & Michele's dog Boomer also died through the night. He died at 2:30am on Friday and Logan was at 11:50am on Friday. Less than 10 hours apart- tell me that is just coincidence! We told Sydney that Max is very sad about Boomer & that she probably shouldn't talk to him about it unless he brings it up to her. We were quite impressed that she did as we asked.

Things are moving on in the Taylor household. I am starting to sleep again & have fewer crying jags, but I still miss her & wish I had done many things differently. But, life is too short for regrets.

Here are some pictures of the kids with Logan. For Sydney, I had to pull out my all-time favourites. Unfortunately we don't have as many of Jason and Logan because neither would stay still long enough together to get a picture.

This last picture is our "Houdini" shot this past summer. We could never figure out how Logan could jump from the steps, clear the chairs, & land safely in the kitchen.

Tearful Goodbye

Today we lost Logan. On Tuesday I took her to the vet & before going I was afraid he was going to tell me she had cancer. Unfortunately I was right. She had a tumor in her abdomen that was about the size of a grapefruit. They took some blood for tests that night & we took her back the next morning for some x-rays. I am in a fog, so I don't remember the technical name that their best educated guess was (they would have had to do surgery to confirm that), but essentially the tumors where in her blood vessels. When the vessel ruptured it would attach somewhere else & start another cancerous growth. It was very aggressive & there is nothing they could do. They told me that when the 'grapefruit' ruptured, she would die.

Well, that happened this morning. The kids & I were out for less than 2 hours & when I came home Logan was not in the living room. I raced through the house searching for her & found her downstairs on the floor. She was still alive when I got there, but was panting really fast. I told her it would be alright, kissed her & told her I would be right back. I had to run upstairs to get the kids in the house because I had left them in the garage. I was gone maybe two minutes, but when I got back Logan was gone. It makes me believe that she was waiting for me to say goodbye. I am happy that I have been home with her since we got the news & she wasn't in any pain. I am so sad she is gone, but I am so happy that she did not suffer before she left us.

Anyone who has a pet, knows that they become part of your family. We lost a very loved one of ours today at the young age of 8. The picture shown here is from last Friday when I was trying to get the pictures of the kids.

Better Luck Next Year

Well our attempt at getting a good shot of the kids to include in the Christmas card was not a huge success. Sydney, however was a success in the Christmas Pageant & even got honourable mention from Pastor George because he was moved by how she looked down on Baby Jesus as she made her way to her spot.

Here are our outtakes that will not be in your Christmas card.

Dress Rehearsal

Yesterday was a bit of a dress rehearsal for our Christmas photo- very late on the draw here & it is do or die tomorrow. If you receive a card from us & are expecting a picture of the kids- don't hold your breath for a good one. On Friday during nap time I got some Christmas things out to take the kids' picture. I have been 'dreading' the tree this year because I had visions of Jason continually pulling stuff off of it. However, I put the little tree up while the kids were sleeping & when Jason got up HE WAS AFRAID OF IT!!!! Shaking & crying. I could not believe it. Of all the reactions I was picturing, this was not one of them. Needless to say, getting a good picture was not that successful- but I will share with you some of my attempts. Logan was the only one good enough to 'pose', but Logan will get her own post on Tuesday.


Today was the dress rehearsal at the church for the pageant tomorrow morning. Sydney was good as gold- said her four lines- although we need her to use the same volume at church that she has used at home. We told her that tomorrow is a competition- who can be the loudest cow! I had both kids so thatt Brad could get the Christmas lights up. I really didn't think it would be too bad, but Jason was insistent on being with his sister. It was pretty cute. He kept going up and trying to either sit on her lap or tackle her to the ground. Then when it was time for her to sit up on the stage- he started wandering around up there. Eventually I lured him away with a banana & since I saw Sydney say her lines took him out of the sanctuary so that he could wander around & not get in any one's way. I am really hoping someone is working the nursery tomorrow so that I can see Sydney's big moment!