Tonight I think I am starting to struggle with the balance between a mother's pride & a mother's fear.
For the last week we have started to get more "serious" about starting the whole potty training process. Sydney has showed some interest, so we figured we would follow her lead & start having her use the toilet. Well for the last week she has successfully gone on the toilet in the morning & for 60% of those trips she has told us that she needs to go. However, her success is not as great throughout the day, which is partly the fault of her "support" team not emphasizing this new learning opportunity & Sydney's keen interest to keep playing rather than running off to the bathroom. So, I must say I am proud of her success because we really have no idea what we are doing & have not "researched" the best methods before starting. So, we are truly playing it by ear.
The next "big girl" thing she is really wanting to try out is drinking out of a cup without the "safety" lid on. So, tonight at dinner we let her drink her milk without the spill-prevention lid. Again, she did pretty good considering she is just starting out. So I was feeling a twinge of pride from the moment, but there was something else there that just blocking the full pride moment.
Well, I think I have figured out what the block is. I am starting to realize that she is growing up & becoming a little girl, not a baby. Because of Baby T2's imminent arrival, we stopped calling her a baby awhile ago. But really it was more of a semantic approach, now I am realizing that she is no longer a baby- but truly a toddler...sniff, sniff.
Add to this realization of mine- I read my cousin's blog & she is talking about coaching her 3-year-old's soccer team. It made me realize that before I know it Sydney will be 3 and we could be looking at getting her involved in an activity that she can enjoy as her own independent person!
So my moments of mother's pride, seem to be mixed with wanting to slow things down & not have her grow up too fast.


















































